living or existing

happy Halloween everyone 👻 i'm writing this post while sitting in bed, listening to the talking heads, and i'm VERY sick. the past month of my life has been unbelievably busy. i will never forget October 2018. i turned 20 years old, went to my first music festival, got stuck in an airport on my birthday, and was 6ix9ine for Halloween. life is anything but boring. the weekend of my birthday was spent in austin, texas at austin city limits music festival. mckenna and i were front row at Odesza, who I've loved since 8th grade (life changing). i also got to see one of my favorite bands, mt. joy, live. we saw phoenix, got stuck in millions of mosh pits at san holo, watched as paul mccartney performed some beatles oldies, stood at the back of metallica because the crowd was scary, saw travis scott, and so so many more. to say the least, my life is forever changed, and i will always jump at the opportunity to go to any music festival. 'spend your money on experiences, not things' is a huge motto/takeaway i've learned this year. i remember vividly standing in the front row of Odesza feeling like i was having an out of body experience, and i just started to cry, because i've never felt so alive. i watched a five year old little girl sit on her dad's shoulders at san holo as everyone moshed around her, and i realized how insanely beautiful each stage of life is. austin, texas is one of my favorite cities now, and i can't wait to return. i got to meet the entire sigler family, which i love so so much. (i miss them already) this entire trip was so happy, and i'm so thankful i got to experience this. that monday, on my 20th birthday, i spent the entire day in the austin airport: one, because i'm an idiot and scheduled the wrong flight time and two, because of flight delays. (never flying frontier airlines again) however, i made friends with a ton of people, fell asleep on like five random strangers, ate a ton of food, drank like five juices from juice land, and then flew back to colorado. my entire family waited for me in a hotel in colorado springs, and i got there just in time to see them before they went to sleep. in that moment, i couldn't have been more thankful for the amazing family that i have, and the love that we share. after i left the hotel, i went back home with my mom after the longest day of my life. when i walked through my front door, all of my friends yelled "surprise" and i was absolutely shocked to the point of almost being in tears that my friends waited until almost midnight for me to get home. they all stayed for awhile, and gave me the sweetest notes. i couldn't have asked for better friends. each and every one of them means so much to me, and they made that birthday the best ever. fast forward to halloweekend, and mckenna and i dressed like 6ix9ine and post malone, which i thought was iconic. all of these girls were dressed slutty with their buttcheeks hanging out, and then there was mckenna and i as these ugly ass rappers. love. the next day we drove down to boulder to stay with none other than clayton mcgee, my soulmate, and montana, the greatest human alive. chloe, sky, clayton, mckenna and i all went out to eat, with clayton dressed as a priest. it was an experience ,to say the least. then, the four of us girls changed into nun costumes, and i swear i never stopped laughing that entire night. it was one of the greatest nights of my life. we went to a house party and then bar hopped until we literally passed out. the next morning, mckenna, clayton, and i went to the liquor store wearing large t shirts, boots, and no pants to fetch some champagne and orange juice for mimosas. so iconic. after we finished both bottles, we went to brunch and drank some more. it was so hilarious, and we were all laughing the entire meal. after that, we went to another restaurant and drank some more (margaritas) and by this point we were trashed in the middle of the day. that afternoon we went to lost gulch lookout, and sat on top of the mountain. this was truly one of the most relaxing, carefree, beautiful days of my life. after this weekend, i got extremely sick (surprise surprise), but it was so worth it. this coming weekend i'm going to another concert (mountain man band) and the bronco game, so hopefully there will be more to write about. i'm proud that i packed all of these experiences into one month.
i hope everyone is living instead of just existing. there is a huge difference. don't let it go to waste. ♥